Saturday, August 27, 2011

Finding Rest

Find rest, O my soul, in God alone; my hope comes from him. He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will not be shaken. My salvation and my honor depend on God; he is my mighty rock, my refuge. Trust in him at all times, O people, pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge.
Psalm 62:5-8


My favorite place.




Friday, August 26, 2011

Say The Word

Say the Word
Whiteheart


Your face shows the secret, hands by your side,
The wounded bird that’s in your eyes is too broken down to fly,
Say the word. (say the word)
It hurts to hear your silence, to watch you slip away,
I want to wrap my arms around your heart, but I’m lost for what to say,

I could say the word. (say the word, say)

For every word he’s sending will never come back empty,
It’s his love raining down…raining down from the sky,

Say the word,
Say the word,
Say the word.

And when I feel the breakers rolling, pounding in my heart, and I’m afraid that I will wash away in my anger and my doubt, I must say the word. (say the word, say)

For every word he sends us holds the power to save us,
It’s his love raining down…raining down from the sky,

Say the word,
Say the word,
Say the word. (hear him saying…)

Come all you weary, and I’ll give you rest,
I’ll never leave you desolate,
I’m the light of the world, come follow me,
I’m the way and the life, and my truth will set you free.

Say the word,
Say the word.
Say the word,

Say the word,
Won’t you say the word?
Say the word


Wednesday, August 24, 2011

With Everything

I certainly do not have this life figured out~that's why they call it living by faith. 

I do not understand all of God's ways, but I trust in His will and plan. Even when it hurts and I want Him to stop the sifting.

The prayer of my life is that with everything that I am I will praise the Lord. In good times and bad times, happy and sad, drought or harvest. Times of questions, as well as times of answers. I know I need to work on this, because at some of my weakest moments I really struggle. 

Lord, let no hesitation pass under my feet before I run and leap into your arms. You are majestic, mighty, glorious, loving, and worthy of all my praise.

I could not live one second of my life without you.

Let hope rise, and darkness tremble...
In your Holy light...

~~~JESUS~~~

With everything...


Saturday, August 20, 2011

Wonder

Wonder
to be filled with admiration, amazement, or awe; marvel 


Wonder of the world~God~you are on display for all to see. For all eternity, with every breath I have I will say so.

All around~in everything.  Every single part of my being.

Above me. Below me. In Front. Behind.

Oh, I can't be silent. I can't be quiet.  For all you have done for me.

You are the most incredible thing in my life and I love you.

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

What A Promise!

Fail Us Not

Failure doesn’t phase You, worry doesn’t win,
Loss doesn’t leave You afraid to start again,
Our sin doesn’t shock You,
Our shame doesn’t shame You at all

Mistakes do not move You, terror doesn’t tame,
Death doesn’t doom You to life in the grave,
Our suffering doesn’t scare You,
Our secrets won’t surprise You at all

There is nothing above You,
There is nothing beyond You,
There is nothing that You can’t do…
There is no one beside You,
There is no one that’s like You,
There is nothing that You can’t do…

Whatever will come, we’ll rise above,
You fail us not, You fail us not,
No matter the war, our hope is secure,
You fail us not, You fail us not,

You fail us not…

Hatred doesn’t hide You, evil doesn’t ail,
Despair can’t disguise You and tell You that You’ve failed,
Our doubt doesn’t daunt You,
Our darkness won’t defeat You at all

You’re bigger than the battle,
You are bigger than the battle
You are bigger than the battle has ever been



Thursday, August 11, 2011

The Test Of My Hope

Ever since we lost our baby, I have felt an extreme test of my faith. Bigger than any test I've ever faced....and I have faced HUGE tests over the course of the last several years. If any of you who read my blog go to Wellspring you may have heard PG's sermon on being sifted. Specifically, he asked if Satan still has access to God. The answer to that is yes. Pastor Gary also talked about how if you are growing in Christ that you are going to be sifted.  Let me just say there is some serious sifting going on within me. (This is an incredibly amazing, GOOD thing!)  Thank you Lord for sifting me!!!!

Here I am, 6 weeks after my D & C...still having complications that I just do not understand. I am overwhelmed with uncertainty, frustration, weariness. I want so much to be hopeful and trust fully in my creator that all things work together for the good of those who love the Lord.  This morning as I was doing my devotions I had a moment of doubt.... that my faith is not deep enough to see God's power in my circumstances.

Then, as if God picked out the verse himself for me to read this morning:

Why, my soul, are you downcast? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God. ~Psalm 42:5-6~

I then read the exact same verse in Psalm 42: 11 and Psalm 43: 5! At the same time as I was reading, I was listening to my latest favorite song that talks about having hope in the Lord all the day long. Not being shaken by drought or storm. Waiting on the Lord because He is my refuge. Can you guess what happened next?  Yup....tears. Tears of thankfulness for God's gentle voice whispering to me.


Satan wants to steal my hope. Satan wants to steal my faith. Satan wants to steal my joy. He wants me to FAIL. THE. TEST.

Well, sorry to disappoint you Satan, but my hope, faith, and joy is found, and will always be found in Christ my Savior. I may doubt because I am created imperfect, but you will never win.  Ever!

I have absolutely NO doubts that God is going to heal what needs to be healed and do something amazing in our lives.
Ephesians 3:20
Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us.


Wednesday, August 10, 2011

My Friend

I'm not sure if you'll ever even read this. If you do (you know who you are), please know that I love you very much!!!  =)



Tuesday, August 9, 2011

Hope

Hope
to desire something with confident expectation of its fulfillment

My hope is in you Lord...

Find rest, O my soul, in God alone; my hope comes from him. He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will not be shaken. My salvation and my honor depend on God; he is my mighty rock, my refuge. Trust in him at all times, O people, pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge. Psalm 62:5-8

I will wait on you...
We wait in hope for the Lord; he is our help and our shield. Psalm 33:20

Thursday, August 4, 2011

Update

People have been asking about me...sorry I haven't given a "Jenni" update in awhile. =)

As of the last blood test I still had the HCG hormone in my body in a very small amount. It has come down since my last lab~thank you Lord!!

So, hopefully it will just continue to phase itself out of my body, the spotting will stop and we can get on with addressing the other issues I need to address. 

Thank you again for your care, concern, prayers, thoughtfulness for myself and my family. God has taught me much through this time and I am thankful for that.

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Great Times!

We had so much fun on our recent BIG Walters family vacation!!!
Lots of fishing, some tubing, paddle boat rides, kayaking, swimming
campfires, movies, great conversations, eating, relaxing....
Good ole' family bonding!