12 years ago...

12 years ago was the most amazing day of my life.  I got to marry my best friend.  I still remember our photographer taking this picture after the ceremony.  We were so thankful to our amazing God that He brought us together and we were going to spend the rest of our lives together! Oh the tears of great joy we shed that day! 

It has been an amazing journey together. We have had incredible joy, heartache, sadness, silliness, humbleness, gratefulness, but most of all we have always had love.  I knew after our first date that I was going to spend the rest of my life with Chad and I cannot imagine a day without him!  Thank you God that before I was even born you had selected this man to be my Husband~after you I have no greater love.



Our first dance as Husband and Wife was to this song:


Love ya babe~forever!!!

What a day!!!

I am not sure what to write tonight.  I am so tired. Today has been a mentally and emotionally draining type of day. Unfortunately the medicine we gave Wes this morning was overruled by adrenaline.  He was too anxious for the dentist to do much of anything. Chad was holding his legs/arms while the assistant was holding his head still.  At the risk of injuring my son the Doctor stopped the procedure.  We do believe the correct decision was made but now we have to wait for two months to have it done at the hospital.  The cost will be much, much more.  The medical portion will be covered mostly by our health insurance (thank you God).  The dental portion is still a huge chunk of change as well as the deductible and any hospital fees not covered.

That quite honestly is low on the list of concerns right now.  I am most concerned about my little boy who has to undergo a pretty BIG procedure.  He has been put through a lot of trauma over the past few months with his mouth.  I know that we have a BIG God and I was reminded by wonderful friends today to keep my eyes fixed where they need to be.  Sometimes it is so hard~I know God's there but I feel like He is so far away.  I feel like I'm doing it all wrong...

God, for that brief moment this morning I wondered.  Wondered why?  Then I heard you whisper 'be still and know'.  Lord, you know me to the innermost parts~you see what breaks my heart. You know the deepest questions and struggles and you don't turn away from me and run when I have doubts.  Instead God you run as fast as you can to pick me right back up off the ground.  Thank you for the grace and comfort you have given me today.  Thank you for friends to walk with me~encouraging me when I stumble.  I trust you! You do have a plan that is far greater than the plan I had in mind.  I will wait on you!

Wesley

Wesley has the first of his two BIG dentist appointments tomorrow.  Tomorrow and next week Thursday he will be getting 4 teeth pulled.  He needs to take medicine an hour before this appointment to help with his anxiety.  Please pray for the meds to go fairly smoothly...I have NO idea what the stuff tastes like.  Also, please pray for the anxiety to be minimal and that the procedure will go smoothly. 

My sweet, big and brave boy.  I love you so much and wish that mommy could take your place tomorrow.  I know God will be right there with you holding your hand and keeping you safe.  I am so very proud of you!

Comic Relief in a 4 year old

Jackson was being silly while Chad was tucking him in bed the other night.  He was telling Chad that the wooden bunk beds were talking.  When Chad told him he couldn't hear anything JJ says "well, that's because you don't speak wood"!  I asked him what language Daddy speaks and his reply, "people talk".  He is the comic relief to our family! A sweet, innocent sense of wonder and humor that blesses me each and every day! 

When I don't measure up...

I love it when songs are written that make me STOP and think "hey~this was written just for me"! This song could be the 'theme' song to my life.

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